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| User: | shivedheart (1968296)  A Tale Told By An Idiot
Full of Sound and Fury, Signifying Nothing |
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| Name: | Kelly | |||||
| Website: | Everybody Lies | |||||
| Location: | Arnold, Maryland, United States | |||||
| Birthdate: | 1976-11-01 | |||||
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| Bio: | NOLI NOTHIS PERMITTERE TE TERERE* Hugh Laurie Banner by ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} innocent_motive; House mood theme by nicolejacks/![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} killergarden created by: ellington_sneak created by: beatlesfanf yours____trulyFeel free to add me, as I love new friends, but do me a favor and drop me a line HERE so that I know you've added me! ~ John Lennon Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, Then listen close to me. . . Anything can happen, child. Anything can be. ~ Shel Silverstein  created by: beatlesfanfA few things you should be aware of before reading on: 1. I am a survivor. Sometimes I talk about it, sometimes I don't. 2. I am a genealogy addict and will rant and rave about it. 3. I am disabled and all too often relate to Dr. House; I should walk with a cane but don't for vanity and pride reasons (yes, I'm aware this is stupid). 4. I am a writer. 5. I am neurotic and I love this about me. 6. I have many real life friends who read my journal: afproudmom, anomarj, christinelennon, hockeykat, janelgirl, keri_lynn1, ladybug218, lisa7678, paladineast, rmartin_justme, shaka743, tonic2w, and videoproducer. Sadly, most *pointed glare* don't seem to update on a regular basis!7. I never lie; I have no reason to. 8. These words are mine, and they are true. Take it or leave it, just never abuse it. 9. paladineast got me hooked on World of Warcraft (should really be Warcrack) as of Memorial Day weekend '07. Blame her for the subsequent babbling that ensues.What can I tell you about myself which you have not already found out from those who do not lie? ~ John Lennon I'm not going to change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything. I've always been a freak. So I've been a freak all my life and I have to live with that, you know. I'm one of those people. - John Lennon SOME WARNINGS
ABOUT FRIENDING/DEFRIENDING ME
Think you know me? Think again: Whoever you are holding me now in hand, Without one thing all will be useless. I give you fair warning before you attempt me further I am not what you supposed, but far different. You Who Are Holding Me Now In Hand by Walt Whitman My thoughts on friendship? In any case, I needed to talk to someone, and I was alone. This is my habitual condition, by choice - or so I tell myself. Mere aquaintanceship leaves me unsatisfied, and few people are willing to accept the burdens and risks of friendship as I conceive of it. ISHMAEL by Daniel Quinn What are memories? Memory is a selection of images: some elusive, others imprinted indelibly on the brain. Each image is like a thread, each thread is woven together to make a tapestry of intricate texture. And the tapestry tells a story, and the story is our past. Eve's Bayou On dealing with painful issues: "If I thought I could help you," Dumbledore said gently, "by putting you into an enchanted sleep and allowing you to postpone the moment when you would have to think about what has happened tonight, I would do it. But I know better. Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it. You have shown bravery beyond anything I could have expected of you. I ask you to demonstrate your courage one more time. I ask you to tell us what happened." Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire by J.K. Rowling My thoughts on those who judge: Condemnant quod non intellegunt Translation: They condemn because they do not understand On who I used to be: She is a girl who is used to being made fun of, the sort of girl who clutches her books tightly in front of her and plunges through the hallways of high school like she is walking into a blizzard. You Remind Me of Me by Dan Chaon Where did my journal name (and subtitle) come from?: To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow, Creeps in this petty pace from day to day To the last syllable of recorded time, And all our yesterdays have lighted fools The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player That struts and frets his hour upon the stage And then is heard no more: it is a tale Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, Signifying nothing. [MACBETH] On November 4, 2002 my father passed away. This is a topic that often comes up in my journal. My father was a truly wonderful man and we (my family and I) were blessed to have him in our lives. When I can decide on the final placement, I plan on getting a tattoo that will simply say "Let It Be." When I was a child, he gave me the Beatles. And when he died, they were the only thing that still made sense. It is only recently that things have started coming back into focus. There is a line from that song that reminded me of my Dad and why I want to get "let it be" tattooed on my body: For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see, there will be an answer - let it be. Let it be doesn't mean forgetting, nor does it mean letting go of his memory. It means letting go of the grief that held me captive for so long. I just wanted to explain that before posting my favorite poem - one that, for years, I was unable to read because I could have written it myself. I know this kind of pain, though it is more bearable. Still present, but scabbed over and healing. Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone, Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone, Silence the pianos and with muffled drum Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come. Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead Scribbling on the sky the message 'He Is Dead,' Put crepe bows 'round the white necks of the public doves, Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves. He was my North, my South, my East and West, My working week and my Sunday rest, My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song; I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong. The stars are not wanted now: put out every one; Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun; Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood. For nothing now can ever come to any good. Remember - you don't know everything about everyone. You can look at my interests, at my communities. You'd think you'd have an idea of who I am, but you wouldn't even come close to the person I truly am. There is so much more to me. Do not judge me. You might be surprised. I am a person who has been through a lot, but haven't you? Haven't we all? There are few who can truly understand the grieving process - unless they themselves have been there. This October/November, I read a very hard story - hard because it reminded me of my own lost loved ones. From Lisey's Story by Stephen King: As she whirls around and around, a tornado now for sure, she screams his name again and again, screams Scott and Scott and Scott, crying for grief, crying for loss, crying for rage; crying for him to explain how he could leave her so, crying for him to come back, oh to come back. Never mind everything the same, nothing is the same without him, she hates him, she misses him, there's a hole in her, a wind even colder than the one that blew all the way down from Yellowknife now blows through her, the world is so empty and so loveless when there's no one in it to holler your name and holler you home. (pg. 213) There was a lot they didn't tell you about death, she discovered, and one of the biggies was how long it took the ones you loved most to die in your heart. It's a secret, Lisey thought, and it should be, because who would ever want to get close to another person if they knew how hard the letting-go part was? In your heart they only die a little at a time, don't they? (pg. 332) Western Union * Don't let the bastards grind you down On each of these websites, you can click a button to support the cause -- each click creates funding, and costs you nothing! Bookmark these sites, and click once a day!       Click here to post this on your page or 'blog | |||||
| Memories:: | 180 entries | |||||
| Pictures: | over 10 public | |||||
| Interests: | 150: abducting lawn gnomes, abortion rights, acceptance, adam pascal, aida, ankylosing spondylitis, anti-bush, bbc, bipolar, books, bookstores, british humor, broadway, bush sucks, christian bale, chronic pain, crohns disease, csi, csi:vegas, dave barry, douglas adams, dr. house, edgar allan poe, ehlers danlos syndrome, epilepsy, equal rights, ferrets, fibromyalgia, flogging molly, fry & laurie, fuck-a-doodle-do, gabriel macht, genealogy, george harrison, get fuzzy, ghosts, greek mythology, greg house, hidden disabilities, hitchhikers guide, hospice, house, house m.d., hugh laurie, hypersensitive, ibs, infp, insomnia, ireland, isle of wight, james wilson, john lennon, kenneth branagh, kevin smith, law and order svu, les miserables, lord of the rings, lost, m.c. escher, matthew fox, maya angelou, migraines, monet, monty python, moulin rouge, mst3k, music, mythbusters, mythology, nanowrimo, new order, new york city, ocd, othello, ovid, panic attacks, paul mccartney, phantom of the opera, philosophy, picaso, pink floyd, poetry, polycystic ovarian syndrome, practical jokes, pro-choice, psychology, puzzles, queer as folk, quotes, rabbitohs, rainn, random thoughts, rants, rats, reading, red dwarf, rene descartes, rent, ringo starr, riverdance, running, russell crowe, sarah mclachlan, sawyer, sean bean, shakespeare, short stories, six flags, smeggin' hell, snorkeling, sociology, socrates, south sydney rabbitohs, star gazing, star wars, stephen fry, stephen king, surviving, swimming, tangential thinking, tattoos, tennyson, the beatles, the last five years, the manic street preachers, the sims, the stand, they might be giants, thinking, tick tick...boom!, titanic, toad the wet sprocket, tolerance, tolkien, toni morrison, tony slattery, tori amos, traveling, trivia, u2, useless information, w. b. yeats, washington d.c., web design, wilmington, world of warcraft, wow, writing, xbox, zora neal hurston | |||||
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